A Christmas Kind of Feeling

It starts on the way home from Thanksgiving at my mom and dadís house.† Iím too full to breathe and sleepy from all the turkey and playing with the kids.† We are driving down 421 toward Winston and Greensboro beyond that, when there, on the side of the road is this tree all aglow with lights.† There are no houses nearby and it stands out from its brethren of the woods only because it is lit.† That one lone cedar suffuses me with such a warm feeling of happiness and joy that I just canít explain.† Who are these people that go to the trouble of decorating and lighting that one tree?† Do they get as much joy from this tree as I do?† Surely they do, at least I hope so.† I often imagine of somehow letting them know how happy their tree makes me.

After that, I get excited and start planning the Christmas pictures Iíll take of the kids and the glorious Christmas cards that will result from those pictures.†† I think about the cookies I will make and the presents I will buy.† All these things make me happy.†† Sure, itís a lot of work to address the 8.2 million cards I send out, but I donít mind.† I want people to know that although they are far away, Iím thinking about them and they still have a place in my heart.† Itís that simple.† I donít have to send out Christmas Cards, just like I donít have to make dozens and dozens of cookies.† I choose to do that myself because I want to show my friends and family that I love them.

It always makes me sad when I hear people say they hate Christmas because they hate having to buy presents and the forced commercialization of the holiday.† I just donít look at it that way.† I GET to buy presents for my loved ones.† I GET to give them a material representation of my love for them.† I donít buy gifts because I HAVE to; I buy them because I WANT to.† I worry about money just like everyone else does, but gifts from the heart donít have to cost a fortune.† Making cookies doesnít cost that much and this year, I was able to give my best friend her favorite movie for Christmas.† Itís an older movie and I couldnít find it in any of the stores.† I finally ordered it online and got free shipping to boot.† I paid $5 for that movie.† $5.† Thatís it.† But the joy I felt when she opened it, well, that really was priceless.† Great, now I sound like a lame credit card commercial.† But itís true.

Iím not perfect by any means.† I wish I could say that I make sure my friends and family know how much I value them and feel blessed to have them in my life every day of the year, but the truth is, life gets in the way.† I get busy and let time slip away.† I donít always get to spend quality time with the people I hold most dear to my heart, except for my husband and children, and not having all the money in the word, I donít get to buy gifts or have time to make cookies.† I guess thatís another reason I love Christmas so much.† I make an extra effort to convey my feelings to those I love.† I am so thankful to have each and every one of them in my life.† Maybe that sounds more like a sentiment for Thanksgiving, but to me, itís a Christmas kind of feeling.

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One Response to A Christmas Kind of Feeling

  1. karen C. December 27, 2010 at 3:02 am #

    I really enjoyed this post! I would agree with you. I was trying to get into the Christmas spirit.. and then a total stranger in the line at Walgreens this week gave something to me without any strings attached. She was in front of me and I thought that she had gone. I was getting ready to pay for me stuff when she came up to me and said “Here is a coupon that I’m not going to use as I’ve already done all of my shopping.” I thanked her. The coupon was $5 off my total bill. $5 may not sound like a lot, but it was the thought behind it. I was able to change my attitude and get with the spirit.

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